I went to Starbucks last Saturday and there were about 15 witnesses outside having coffee. When I pulled up one sister, an elder’s wife, smiled and said “Hi Dazed.” I smiled and said “Hey, hows it going?” Then my kids and I went inside. Her husband was sitting with his back to me when I pulled up. He was the elder that invited me to the memorial the night before via voicemail. I sent him a text message back: “I respectfully decline this or any future invitations.” So I understand and appreciate him not acknowledging me. I always liked him. I just don’t want to give them a reason to bother me.
When I left, my closest friend from the hall who was sitting there, he didn’t see me until I came out, got up and came over while I was buckling my kids in. I didn’t know how he felt about me anymore. He shook my hand and we chatted for a few minutes. He told me he wanted to get together and catch up. I said sure. We still had each other’s phone numbers. I asked him if he was sure. He told me he didn’t care what others thought.
I smile and acknowledge them if they do the same. I understand being bitter. Everyone’s experience in the borg is different. I believe it is much better for them to see me and Mrs. Dazed and the kids happy rather than reinforcing their bullshit belief that apostates are angry, bitter and mentally diseased.
I often get a hug from one other sister that we knew. Most others ignore me. To those who ignore me, I don't go out of my way to be friendly or mean.
